bottle

So, Callie has not been taking bottles. We took her yesterday morning to Beckman and Associates and met with Beckman and a Speech Language Pathologist. They did an Oral Motor Assessment and her scores on some muscles in her mouth were low. We have to do 3 exercises, 3 times a day for 3 weeks. I CUT MY NAILS LAST NIGHT. We were given a Mead Johnson squeeze bottle and have had some success with it compared to nothing before. I am hopeful she is going to be fine on a bottle soon. I am still exclusively breastfeeding, so this will not make it any easier, still need to pump if she uses a bottle.

Today has been ok thus far. Last night from 6-8ish, Kahlil had to drive Callie around town to stop crying/fussing. I hope between the Zantac and bottle feeds that she can get better soon. Yesterday I saw her awake and alert without crying. I want more of that! It is hard to keep her up unless she is crying.

Today I have a better and more positive outlook on everything. I am ready to be a Mommy, just need all of my preconceived notions out the window. This is my hardest job EVER.

On a side note, My mom's friend Debbie is coming over now to help out some. It is so lonely being home and not seeing other people. I am almost scared to go out in public a lot because of the crying fits that do not end sometimes, as well as breastfeeding in public. Her schedule is not predictable. We wake her every 3 hours during the day and 4 at night, but she definitely wakes on her own crying as well.

I have not learned all the cries yet, because I was set on the Dunstan theory, and it has not exactly worked with Callie.

To each his own. The pumpkin is squirming around now.

I hope that my posts get better with time, as I really want to enjoy Mommyhood and not be in the baby blues/Post partum funk. I hope we have a schedule soon, so that I can expect time for errands, going out, and showering!